I risked my life in stormy weather for organ lesson
Monday, 24 March 2008 @ 18:41:00
I AM DAMN PISSSED!I risked my life in order to go for organ lesson just now, and guess what?When I reached there, my teacher did not come and hence there was no lesson.Alright, I wadded my way home desperate for a shelter...Why did I risked my life?It was pouring like some typhoon( I've no idea what category was that! I guess it's a cat 2 storm) outside... I was damn sian diao to leave my house...Then I carried a bigger than my-normal-umbrella umbrella with me. When I was downstairs not far away from my block, a lightning flashed super brightly (almost blinding my vision) closely followed by a damn F-ing loud CRACK of thunder! IT SERIOUSLY CRACK! AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I AGREE WITH "THUNDER CRACK" !!!!!!Wah Kaozzz... A split second after the crackin of thunder, I stood extremely still and scream like hell loud (I was very unglam just now in the public lah!!!). SO LOUDLY that I can even hear myself in the midst of the noise of the thunder. Whoa, what a nice reflex I had got there. I'm so glad that at the point of time the whole place was quite deserted. My heart almost stopped beating and dropped out of me...Then I wadded cautiously across the flooded pavement. I guess it was quite useless to walk so cautiously because everywhere was wet and both my legs were already wet. Then just before I crossed the road, another birght white light flashed and followed by another ear-drum damanging crack of thunder! My soul almost flew out of my body, and my eyes felt watery and warm... I actually teared in this frustrating and frightening weather. I had no idea why I reacted that way. But I felt super duper scared... Partly I was scared of being struck by lightning (but not the main point of why I am scared)...Then again, I am always feeling nervous and anxiety whenever I hear lightning and thunder. I just want to hide so that I cannot see the lightning nor hear the thunder. I recalled when I was young, I always hide under my blanket or under the table away from the windows whenever a thunderstorm was occurring. Especially when I was alone at home, how I wished someone was with me in that stormy weather and I could just HUG that person tightly. I thought as I grew up, I would not be afraid of lightning and thunder anymore because it was common and normal for kids to be scared by them. I cannot believe that at the age of 17, I am still very much frightened by lightning and thunder! Arghh. Do I seriously have astraphobia?I went to wikipedia just now to check for such a fear and it turn out to be a phobia thingy, and the symptoms described and the symptoms which I showed were quite tally..Can I not admit that I've a phobia for something?! But anyway, I don't think people will believe that I have such kiddy phobia... Cos I don't want to believe it myself. And since it is not testified by any experts that I have a phobia... In conclusion, I do not have a phobia.BLEAH.
& I wake up to a beautiful day
