eh? It has been such a long time since i blog. ok ppl. here's the long update. ready???


chinese O lvl paper was a total flop for me. Its hard.


remedials the whole 1st wk of hols.
week 2 & 3:
i flew to NZ!!! what a super duper beautiful place.
I love it!!! I feel so calm n peaceful there.
Altho some irritating n incorrigible juniors spoil my mood sometimes. but let's 4get abt the bad part. what i rmb the the beautiful parts of the trip. ok it's a great place to take scenic pics!!!
hurray!!
haha mayb i get fongyee to upload the photos somewhere so ppl can enjoy looking at the photos.
well everybody look kinda bigger than usual as we wore layers of clothings.
It's still cold dere altho its summer.

wk 4:
SC camp wasn't very well organized. I tink the juniors shld work harder.
Senior farewell concert item was a flop. sorry. i was away n when i came back i realize Qin Hui nv do anything!! fongyee was enraged t0o. We feel lyk kicking him to outer space lor.


SC chalet was quite fun altho the juniors r rude to us. They're rude to the sec 4s. haiyo. duno where their manners hav gone to... eaten up by aliens i guess.
well i stayed thro'out the whole thing. had some fun playing mahjong. haha thx the the du gui calvin chia's bad influence. lyk wat xx always says: gambling is wrong. Vernon came to our chalet on the 1st nite to be mahjong kahkees together wif bernard guansen n calvin. they played till morning. I had no where to slp on the st nite lor. both rooms n all the beds r occupied. Thx a million to calvin who raised a suggestion. If nt I'd hav a slpless nite. but i tink it's kinda troublesome for him. guansen's ah gong voices n behaviour just makes me feel v warm like ahgong nagging. that familiar feeling. Bernard as usual v qian da. Vernon lost his voice n the way he played mahjong w/o his voice is damn funny. KaoCHienYIng my PB senior came on teh 2nd evening. yay so long nv see him alr. sobs he's leaving for australia in feb!!! may nt be able to see him for another 7yrs. he's nt returning to s'pore t0o. I found out this info when i suddenly barged(cos i cant slp at the other room cos it's t0o crampy. JAson to0k the whole bed to himself) into the room whild he was chatting wif choonyen. haish. im gng to lose a nice person/senior/fren. I tink KaoCY is like a nomad. travelling here n there. But since he's gng to aussie n nt coming back for good. heh i may hav an excuse to go melborne in future. =p o0ps. sry choonyen i interupted the session. if nt the chat can be longer w/o my presence. oh yar let's rewind abit. on the 2nd evening, me fong n xx were a little anti social to lock ourselves up in the room n blasting off with our vocals. lalala. like 3 crazy gals singing to ourselves. but it's v enjoyable lor.we refused to come out for BBQ. hahaha. but i felt lonely aft the 2 gals went home. sian diao. wah lao.


Saturday night went out with social for steamboat dinner.
siao b4 i stepped out of the has at 3plus i had the most terrible menstral cramp in my life. Made Amanda waited for me till evening lor. i tot i couldnt make it for the night alr. Weee had a great dinner with juniors as i'm being pampered like a princess. They help me cook my food!!! hahaha
ok lar nt rily feel lyk princess just felt that i finally received an improved social treatment.


wk 5:
the Sec4 grad nite was a success. whoa! everybody was superbly dressed. altho some ppl din manage to get anything nice to wear. they still look gd in their casual wear. lol. I can see the seniors were enjoying themselves n they were v busy taking photos more than half of the time.
I couldnt resist to take pics wif them t0o!!! yay. so happy to see that the sec4s were quite happy wif the seating plan(altho mutual x-change is allowed) i had a bad time arranging them according to their classes. It was arranged accrdin to serial no. initially. BUT the sec4s told me that they'll prefer to sit wif their class so I insist in class seating arrangement altho karen stop me at 1st as she says it's a hassle. BUt what i tink is that it may be a hassle to us but nt to the sc4s as they nid nt hav to go arnd asking ppl to change seats. the success rate is quite low actually. N since it's the last school event that the sec4 will participate as sec4s, so i must put in my very best effort into making the nite the best for them. I saw many happy faces that nite, dressed to nine. I tink it's a rare chance to see them dressed up so formally. mayb nt a 2nd chance to witness that again. yujia was super sexy n hot in her low back n low cut black dress. gosh n her silky striaght hair complete her whole look. she's t0o sexy till some guys either turn their heads away or stunned wif their jaws dropped when they saw her. Choonyen dressing was simple yet pretty. I nv see michelle in a dress or skirt b4. she's always in running shorts when i see her. melissa look like a japanese anime character. her natuaral blonde hair save her the trouble to dye it. sixuan was in this very cute black dress. very cute but sexy. haha. ngehwee look v elegant. beiru look v demure in her white tube dress. tessa was hot. haha the guys v soso lor cos almost the same. guansen was the shuai-est in his life!!! bernard look lyk korean star due to his sunglasses effect. calvin's hair look like some street-fighter character's. ok lar mian qiang he look shuai t0o. lmao. jkjk. yongqiang look like big boss. munkit super shuai n dazzling at nite. he's one of the 4 shortlisted MR ALMA MATER. haish but Zaviar was crowned instead. Peck hwang(miss alma mater) look like celebrity lor. i'm jealous of her beauty. lalalala~ okay the nite ended with a free dancing session.


fri n sat was our social outing. shld be the 26th social outing.
sian the attendance was a lil disppointing. me fongyee xx wanleng szekiat. seniors: wanling guansen n chooneyen(hu came later), bernard(hu came when we were having dinner at sakae). super late lor. but at least we had some fun lor. yay i 1st time eat sakae sushi n 1st time try ramen!!! supernice lor... yay but the bill was nicer.
stayed over at fongyee hse. played her mahjong set halfway den realized that her set does nt contain animal tiles. sian diao. aft that we watch tv for awhile. n den we played x-box. 1st timer as a x-box player. realized i had many 1st times. lol. went to the nearby hawker sentre for breakfast.. sk ordered 5 pratas. crazy appetite. guansen n ber both aaaate 2 serving of food each.. another big stomach monster...
haha me n xx told them nt to go back so early to slp (cos they hav bball trg at nite) will be more energetic de but they dun believe us. ok lor nvm.
sk rushed off for his guitar lessons. wahh left the 4 of us liao lor. wanleng went home t0o. while the 3 of us went to town. met up wif calvin n choonyen. calvin nid2 pass xx his extra hp cos hers was conficated the nite b4 as she exceeded her curfew time. he lend her to use for 1 mth leh n she dun hav to pay his phonebill lor. see sucha nice senior yet xx always suan him. haish. xx must yin shui si yuan k.. =P i risked my life saying that sentence as i'll be chop to death for sure when xx read this^. lalalala. lai ba lai ba. hmm mayb i shld get my phone conficated 4eva so i'll hav free phone to use 4eva. o0ps. i didnt say anything. I just said anything. ok crap. sorry abt teh lameness. i've been typing this entry for 2hrs alr. abit blur n sot liao.




this is specially dedicated not ONLY to myself:
wow. i practically missed trgs the whole NOVEMBER. goodgame lor. but it's nt what i wanted. rily. Subconsciously i keep tellin myself that i must nt carry on to "pon". But mayb I'm nt hard on myself enough. nt enough. I'm filled wif events man. totally i stopped trg almost 3mths alr, 10wks?? wat the... aft eoy. I was packed busy wif art fest matters. then so lucky lor i was injured can. so super fortunate lor. i injured is something i wan can. happy. then the 1 wk break for sec3s cos we ahv remedials the 1st wk. went for 2 sessions of trg. there i flew to NZ. back from NZ i had SC camp the day after. Then SC chalet. Then i lose faith in myself already. How on earth am I gng to catch up wif the others with the no. of trgs i missed..... WHO KNOWS that i'm having the kind of internal struggle which is painful. I went for a session last wed. it's long run n macritchie. I felt very VERY inferior. I felt useless there. everybody is running far in front of me. i dunno y i'm there. i lost the meaning of me being there. I felt that it's ok for me nt to be there all of a sudden. i tot dat's a wrong idea but i duno wats wrong with me. I dun even noe y each morning i lost the drive to wake up." i can't wake up" i told the others y i din come for trg. I'm very clear that that's a stupid excuse. but i still used it again n again. ever since i came back from NZ i always feel very slpy n tired in the evening. (NZ is 5 hrs ahead of SINGPAPORE) BUt when its sleeping time at arnd 10pm i felt very energized n awake till 2.30am. i felt asleep at that time n how u expect me to wake up at 6am for trg??? where got ppl jetlagged for so long one. i agreed with others. mayb mentally n spiritually I assumed that im still in NZ. mayb i flew back but i left my soul floating there. because u dun hav to worry abt anything back at NZ. my mind was at peace. my mood was lyk the sunshine. my complexion was like babyskin. my hair was like celebrity's so smooth n silky. everything was near to perfect. but when im back here. i felt so annoyed, irritable. altho i get to see my close ones n friends again, i feel like i'm dreading every minute here. with so many troubles so many unhappy things happening. my mood is unstable. my hair is so runaway n bad. n skin so oily n pimply. I'm vexed. ppl ask y i pon trg.. y i haven start my holi hw. y this y that...
I noe it's my fault for missing trg sessions. MAYB I SHLD TRAIN ALONE. running is not a easy task yet it seems easy. everything becomes a complex one once it becomes a psycological thingy.
THANKS LOADS to AMANDA KWONG our captain. she's the one that cared n concern abt me. SHE's the one who reminds me of my passion for the cca. n once how siao i was abt gng for trg. She give me a hand n pull me out of darkness. WHILE others were so superficial. SHe said as your captain/fren i cant sit n do nothing n see u rot at home. She's a worthy fren. She cared to look beyond n feel for me. she told me somethings good abt me which i din realise that I have. at least she's the one that keep telling me dun miss trg all along, always telling me the time venue for trg even if she noes that i may overslept again. she's responsible for me as a captain. n I tink i shld start doing something which is responsible for myself t0o. whateva i say ppl oni treat it as im complaining n tot that I wasn't serious so dey nv treat me seriouly. ok that's fine. lalala I noe where my weak pts are so i dun blame ppl hu dun heck care abt me. wo zhi shi jue de you dian xin han ba le.
okay i've rant enough shall say no more. it's late alr yet i haven pack for my camp tmr.

The ONE n ONLY ♥ J A N I C E ♥.








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