%ANOTHER ORDINARY DAY

this is wat i wanna say

Saturday, 28 January 2006 @ 15:17:00

see i suay bo...

keep falling down.i can write a bk of myself liao

"a series of unfortuante events - janice tay edition"

lolx..

this may seem funny

but i'm telling u...

IT'S DEFINTIELY NOT

many ppl think running is the easiest sport ever

n the most easy cca in sch

cos u dun hav to learn any new skill

afterall running is sth dat everybody noe since dey r born

tsk tsk

wrong!!!

running is nt as easy as u think

it's nt oni physically tiring but mentally enduring

any runner hav to be v strong at heart to complete every race dey participated

even during trainings....

he or she has to be strong

n cos im a runner...

so i can truely feels wat it's lyk being a runner

from dere i understand my team mates...

many ppl tink dat missing trg is no big deal,

including some teachers,

since it's thrice a wk

so wat if u miss one of them..

but im telling u it's a v big deal!

every trg is super important to us..

cos once we missed the trg for dat day..

u lose the mileage dat other's cover dat session

which builds ya foundation...

n finding time clogging dat distance in isnt dat easy

cos u cant find the time to replace it back...

cos u must rest for ya body to recover b4 working it again..

if nt u will nt improve..

if u missed trg dat's it..

u r somehow a step behind other who progress...

how on earth will ppl understand?!

unlike other cca u missed dat day...

u can practise dat instrument at home..

bball n netball mostly is abt tactics..

if u rmb every single one of them..

u r able to use dem n perform when u nid to..

but running is nt this case

u hav to run consistently

if nt say bye bye to running..

Perhaps u may think dat I sound so negative

but i can say dat since the day i'm in athletics...

my perpective really changes..

i'm exposed to the real world out dere

i've learnt many things from my dear coach!

evrything i see is really an eye-opener..

take the perth trip for example..

IRONMAN RACE

it's a 3.8km swim, 180.2km cycle n 42.2km run

waaaahh

looks so impossible to complete

but dere r really ppl out dere who completedit under 17hrs

n get themselves a finisher medal...

dey nv think of giving up...

dey finshed it even though it's unbearable nt dist but weather

even for those who did nt able to make it under 17hrs

still persevere to complete the race

n the ppl at the finishing line cheer for dem

dey did nt jeer n comment dat dey r lousy

dis is sth many singaporeans muz learn

sportsmanship

ppl may think dat i'm always using my trg as an excuse to pon sc stuffs

i hav a choice

i chose to go trg

dey THINK i shld nt do dat t0o often

n say i AP hav neg attitude

if really so i'll nt be able to make it thro life till today...

dey nv put themselves into my shoes, did dey?

my stand is different from theirs

dey cannot say dat i'm wrong

cos my priorities r diff from theirs

running is my top priority so is trg..

it's nt dat i nv contribute to the council

impossible if u say i nv do anything for the student body b4

i give all i can b4..

i din ask for returns

but i got myself ruin

emotionally n spiritually...

when i just joined sc in sec 1

i do everything i can

really gif all out

attend all meetings dey held

missed many trgs

most of the time i'm the oni junior dere

present for PB's meeting

when others went for their own stuffs lyk

cca tuition bla bla bla

i was dere for the meeting

but tym was actually wasted on some other irrelevant talks

oh well i din complain evn when i'm the oni seec 1 dere

i tot as long as i'm an sc i'll lend a hand to help out all the time

but i din noe dat i'm alr creating many problems for myself at the end of sec 1

problems which ppl cant help me out

my fellow team mates were unhappy

as i din attend trg...

dey find dat i'm nt commited to cca...

at the start of sec 2

my stamina really sux by then

i cant run as i used to

from the top i fell deep into the bottom

i was silly to neglect my studies

i wasnt doing well either

well,

all wat i hav done for the council was nt recognised either

i din wan any compliments or recognisions

but dun say dat i din do anything lar

oh common lor r these ppl blind or heartless?!?!?!..

i'm really down

it's lyk darkest tym of my life..

running cant make it

studies almost doomed

council giving me probs

i really cant take any further blow....

den i din make it to the sch team

i'm so damn emotionally hurt n spiritually affected

mentally i really cant take it alr

my confidence was all gone

nobody will understand my feelings

none of them.

i really felt dat i'm useless when ppl asked me

y i'm nt running on race day

how am i gng to answer them?

"oh cos im t0o lousy to run"?!!

nonetheless,

i adopted a positive attitude towards my stituation

i'm an optimist

my best frens cheer for me

I noe I'm nt a failure aft all

from den onwards

i'll nt gonna waste my tym

i MUST set my priorities well

at the end of sec 2

mr tan splited the 12 gals into track n cross

those who hav a flair in track will be in track

same goes to cross...

but since im nt gd in cross alr he'll put me into track

as track nids ppl

but he put me into cross

he gif me another chance

he noe dat i'm juz missing my way previously

so he believed dat i can do it

I was touched

(ppl reading this may laugh but u nv noe hav i feel since u nv went thro wat i went thro, so keep ya mouth shut!!)

i tell myself i must nv let down MR LEE n MR TAN again

but mr lee will say dat i've oni hav to account for myself

so i'm nt gonna to muddle my life again

hence i tink missing any other things isnt dat big deal now

trg is the most big deal one..

when i missed sch or sc things

i can follow up the next day

asking others wat i'm supposed to do or noe

at the end of the day i still get things done...

so i tink it's ok

whatever it is

i'm nt gng to let those miserable things to happen to me again

never!!

i hav to protect myself from anything dat'll threaten me

so whenever i hav the chance i'll go home earlier

to rest n get ready for the next trg session

it's nt dat i'll wanna pon sc purposely...

ppl say i'm v fierce

but when i'm more gentle n nice to dem

dey say i act cute

oh fuck off lar

wat dey wan lor...

fine if u dun lyk me

i'm who i am

if u dun lyk me juz say

dun hav to appear to lyk me

but spread rumours n

start influencing others to be one of ya anti-janice member

u r juz a moron living in ya small little wolrd full of hatred

lalala

jealous dat i still can be so happy rite..

t0o bad for u

u wanna make my life miserable

den the more i wanna live the fullest n happiest out of it

ne ne ni pu pu

u cannot catch me

hmm i would lyk to thanks my true frens

who r really dere for me whenever i nid them

nt those who say dey'll but i nv see dem

hypocrite lar..

bleah

*hugs n kisses to all my darlings!!!*

& I wake up to a beautiful day